Summer Love....

So of course you're gona want and explanation of the previous post but i cannot give that to you. Because when i write these things i write them with emotion hence all the errors and short hand i want to get my point across before my feelings change during the writing process....

i write what i feel and i write it quickly for my emotions do fade and when they do i lose motivation to blog and the post gets boring. 

If You Know What I Mean

In any case i will try to surmise what i was feeling at the time without seeming vague.

Basically, my ex had texted me that day and passed all the pleasantries only to let me know that we might never get back together. Now, i don't know if this was clear portrayed in this blog that i was clenching desperately to the hope that we would in fact get back together but not only that but would have rekindled a new flame and would be more in love than ever....and with that text all hope was shattered for me hence the blog.


Since then a few things have happened:


1. I came to the realization that we would never get back together and i might have to get to know someone all over again and fall in love....agian, and then possibly be heart broken....again :(
Seamless to say i took it pretty well....i have completely destroyed my phone so i have no urges to text or call my ex and i hardly check his facebook anyway so...ye. What am trying to say is am slowly getting over my ex am quite surprised at how well its going, even in his presence i tend to feel little to nothing and it scares me because suppose he comes back and i've lost all feelings for him and all that's left is non-reprehensible residue? 








Am just praying that whatever love we had, if it does die, he has the strength to resurrect it.






2. Some good news....Rugby dude texted me to apologize and even make small talk...i indulged him cuz it takes up too much time and energy to be pissed and angry but ill say this.... I KNEW HE'D BE BACK! (mwahahahahahah!!!)




My point here is.....my ex says he needs more time to cope with our break up ye..and thats all fine and dandy but while he's coping this distance is making me get over him at a very impressive pace considering the type of love i declared i had for him.....so either he speeds up his process or he's gona lose me forever like the pastor's son before him (ie thts a story for another time)