Karma

Meet Sad Keanu...he expresses how i feel the bird and all

When i was with my ex he used to complain about me never answering his calls and how it used to be so annoying and frustrating for him....my rebuttal was that he had so much free time and I was busy.....which was the truth!

I never knew how serious these calls were because I couldn't see from his point of view, but nw that we're on rocky roads and am trying to patch things up I've been making an effort to call him once in a while but it seems like he is now too busy for me

.....which i should expect....but in all honesty i didn't!

When i call (which is rare) i expect him to answer after the 4th and 7th call you knw.....i was probably expecting too much seeing what happened between us....and being a female the first thing my mind goes to is tht he's screwing sum1 and just cant reach the fone right nw

Am so depressed right nw because it just hit me that my ex is doing fine without me and am the only one struggling....am the only one feeling like shit, feeling alone and useless -sigh- in hindsight i wish i had freaking sprinted to that phone when it rang

GOT......TO......GET.....PHONEEEE!!!!!!!!!

So listen am this type of person....when something like this happens to me and i knw i deserve it my first instinct is to cry but my body REFUSES to make me cry for simple issues....once ive released my feelings nd had my pity party I move on immediately to a happy place without really addressing my previous emotional state so right nw in the few minutes I took to right this I got over the missed calls and alrdy made up my mind not to call agn as a defense mechanism....in my mind i wana delete his number but i knw it from memory so it wont make a difference but -sigh- am moving on.....no point being sad

Left this size to emphasize how happy i am....(it would seem am over compensating....but who cares wat u think)