Three Important Thoughts

1.

This Polycystic Ovary thing is not gona work out fah me...the pills are supposed to stop the bleeding but it hasnt! Am bleeding constantly! My body feels drained am easily annoyed, irritable, my head hurts i go thru so many pads, i cnt even lauff without feeling a gush of blood leaving ma body and not to mention am super horny all day everyday!!!! MA BODY IS SO SUPER SENSITIVE if i take a piss nd it tickles ma clit i feel like amo orgasm. i Cant even bathe in peace...if i stay too long in tha shower i strt dripping blood nd if i wipe ma vag too hard i turn maself on! UGH!!! i havent had sex in almost 6 months nw....AM STARVING!!! And i even think ma STBB is gona end this lil thing we have cuz a lack of sex nd i wuddnt fucking blame him might even cut him off nd save him the long hard decision nd the awkward convo. -sigh- I just want it to be over with...i want to b free of all this blood!

2.

so i was tlking to a frend of mine and jah knw its tha bes convo ive had in a gud while with anybody sensible enuff to understand me. As in i dnt even think he knws how much i really appreciated it cuz i needed sum1 to tlk to so bad tht i had all this pent up emotions and it was really great having sumwhere to release them tht had nothing to do with being anonymous or siting around a computer typing and editing shit....it was great to have so form of human companionship and since ma ex was the only one i cud tlk to nd seeing tht he is now unavailable for tht am glad i found sum1 else to help out a girl...(i bet he didnt think tht wud happen *middle finger*). It may be a lil awkward for ma ex seeing tht am sharing more with his frend than with him but in all honesty i did go to him for help and he shot me down so wat did he think was going to happen i wud sit around and wait for him and then eventually beg for mercy like the peasant bitch tht i am...

3.

i miss ma mom....she came to pick up my laundry the other day but apparently she was in a bad mood and decided she didnt wana speak to me which i guess is bttr than the norm which was her taking it out on me but its wateva...i missed her...she wasnt in tha mood fah me and am okie with tht...

so mayb am not but wat can i do...i cnt force the woman to show me some affection is not like she can read ma mind and realize am lonely and all tht jazz so wat do u expect a girl to do beg for her mother's affection....

id rather do without.