today i was forced to deal with a delicate topic...cheating
So ma ex cheated on me and it was a simple cheat ntn too dramatic but the heartache came frm the fact tht i thought i was immuned to being cheated on...u knw i had this theory tht because i cuddnt where my hair in a bun i cuddnt get bun....lol boi was i silly. I look Awesome in a bun nw [haha]
The story goes...afta we broke up my ex decided to tell me tht just before we broke up he was feeling so neglected nd ignored (at tht time i was really stressed out my work load was unbearable and i was extremely depressed nd shit). He had a lil crush on this girl frm our high school nd she also had a lil crush on my then bf....nw me nd this girl we werent close frenz but we used to lauff and tlk to each other alot...we used to rub our boobz togthr nd kiss each other on the lips nd i think there was even tongue one time not too sure but anywhoo....nw they were at college togthr nd him feeling so sad nd lonely and she willing to lift his spirits...she...well lets just say she and julene can gree zeen -giggles- ahh boi
i wasnt hurt at the time cuz wen he told me we were broken up but in reality I AM FUCKING HURT and it wasnt the first time they did this....mayb tht was the furthest it went but the fact of the matter is its stylz cheating!!! and am styl disappointed nd shit...i alwys thought i wud be the one to cheat...fuck...even HE thought id b tha one to cheat nd lord knws ive come very close to it.....VERRY VERRRRRRY close nd it wuddnt have stopped at jus there (at the julene)....but i didnt cheat...cuz i cuddnt but mayb i shud have....well i didnt!
anyway i saw the girl afta this hppnd apparently she didnt knw i knw but i didnt bother to tell her i did my hypocrite role nd nw we dnt speak cuz i can only b fake for so long.
-sigh- in any case this is my open letter ...am hurt that i got cheated on -shrugs- but i guess i needed tht...so nw am prepared for anything
sorry there a are no pics am not in tha mood
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