Breaking Point

last night i reached my breaking point, i finally broke down nd cried my eyes out and like every typical girl i needed some form of comfort zeen?

I made the mistake of txtin tha STBB his advice was hug up ma pillow nd think abt him and i told him i dnt want ma pillow i want him zn...tha yute ago say 'wen i get bttr i can have him to do as i please' OMG YUTE THIS ISNT ABOUT SEX!!!! all i wanted was a lil hug, a cuddle to tell me everything was gona b okie...i mean ma mind was so overwhelmed i strted thinkin tht i actually cud die because a this thing -sigh- DUMB JOCK! UGH! but then i thought mayb he isnt comfy around a girl wit her period right, cuz some guys arent i knw ma dad is tha type of guy who doesnt like to see a pad lying around so mayb thts why but wateva reason it is...i was really lonely nd just needed some assurance but as ive come to learn u can only depend on yerself in this life.

Anywhoo am slowly getting ova this dude so he might not even last too long stylz

On another note...i went back to tha doc today cuz tha pills they gave me were not working so i had to find out if its getting worse and all tht jazz...so i saw tha doc apparently (this is a diffy doc frm the one b4) she doesnt think i have a polycystic ovary cuz my ultrasound didnt show any cysts she thinks its some outlandish reason which for some reason i just dnt wana share here but anywhoo she sent me to do tha standard test BP, PR, Preggers test and Glucose test (BTW am not preggers :D) 

But knw om on some new shizz and if these dnt work amo have to go to tha hospital to do this test 

where their gona stretch open ma cervix nd scrape the walls of ma uterus

Should b fun dnt u think?

-sigh- 

Well i hope tha pills work cuz if they dnt inuh am FUUUCCCKKKEEEDDDD!!!!