The Last Time we spoke I made some big speech abt not being a total push over when it comes to my ex and I also said that I'd never be the one to strt a convo...Well am gona update you on how thts going


I havent been the one to start a convo with him...so far he's been the one to approach me but when he does am all to happy to continue the convo as if nothing were wrong. Recently he found himself stuck at school with no place to stay for the night. He hit me up on chat and we were having a jolly convo in the after 1am when he says "soooo.....am at school" the expected reply was "oh so u wana stay over?" but am too smart for tht so i asked the obvious question "why?" he gave some lame excuse i think it was in the lines of 
                                                 "cause its the batcave" 
 anywhoo, with his plan backfiring we just moved pass tht awkward moment until his net went THAT's when it got interesting....i got a call frm him the convo went something like this:


HIM: hey, so the net is down in the batcave so i cnt tlk to you on fb but i was wondering if i could sleep by u


ME: ummm *long awkward pause* (thought process during the pause: hmmm i cnt let him come here we wud probably have sex nd i cnt have tht.....but i cnt let him stay there and be eaten by the savage night walkers of the north [<--- le awesome Game of Thrones Reference].....but you promised yerself you wouldn't let him in yer room unless he's dying or sumthing....Woman this is probably life and death, he's mostly skin and bones....he COULD die!....ugh! fine i have an extra bed anyway ill just sleep on tht and he can have my bed) Ye, Sure! 


HIM: you can say no inuh, i could probably just chill here till morning

ME:Dude just come

HIM: okay, am on my way.




So when he got here he went on my bed and i of course went on the spare bed like the good girl i am....bare in mind i had an exam coming up so i cuddnt allow myself to b distracted either way....so it was the best decision to just stay away and pray he doesnt jump me r sumn
Eventually i strted feelijng tired and wanted to sleep in my bed....he was alrdy asleep....so i crawled in bed nd just stayed in my corner.....after a few minutes tho the touching commenced and of course i didnt stop it cuz i havent been touched in so long all i could do was be like:


 Sweeeet Jesusss!


I eventually regained my composure and pushed him away.....and this happened pretty throughout the night until morning when he seemed to have regained his sense. 
A day or too after we were having an unfinished convo and i said to him " I want to invite you over on Friday" key word here: WANT...of course i could just have him over and not knw a few things

Now usually id just stalk his profile to see who's the new girl he's with but sine we became frenz on fb -again- i have never been on his profile and i plan to keep it tht way. So now when i want to knw some thing i have to ask, so i did...begining with WHY he was at school till so late....to which i got a proper answer...then i asked abt the many girl i suspect him to have....he declared it only one and the r'ship is complicated which only registered to me as: i got some young girl am tlking to nw but oh how i wish she was more mature so i could be proud to proclaim her as my new gf to u so you could feel totally replaced like i did.





So of course i could invite him knowing tht he's in a r'ship no matter how lonely my house is becoming...its hard to do the right thing but life is all about hard decisions love