Formalities...

Its been a long while since i've written abt wat has happened in my life...but in an effort to catch u up amo jus put them in point format...the wont b in any chronological order or watever ill jus write as they come to me so it may b a lil confusing

1. Rugby Guy/STBB

I had broken things off with this dude cuz during ma sickness he seemed petty insensitive, mind you, he did ask me how i was doing nd all tht jazz but there were times wen he implied tht he needed sex...nd in my opinion he implied it too often...so i gave him the freedom to go get it elsewhere. He got upset nd maliced me for a day nd wat not but eventually strted going bak to his old ways in terms of treating me like he missed me nd wateva. So during the time we were broken up ma period had stopped ...finally....but i had heard abt my STBB making out with some other girl less than a wk after we so called "broke-up"...i was a lil angry but not surprised and ironically wen i heard this it was at the same time of him trying to make up with me but i was backsliding to my ex so i didnt give him the time of day...anyway me and my ex up making out onr night nd he left a few indications of our time together ie 2 hickeies.

This guy saw them and got so upset he strt cussing me thru txtz nd stuff...like a lil girl...so of course i brought up the fact tht we were not togther nd the girl he was seen making out with...he ignored my statements.

In the end he stated "YOU ARE " LOL so ye tht is the end of tht

since then ppl been txt'n me telling me they see him with this girl hugging nd kiss but i pay it no mind...he is the first guy id ever regret meeting nd he is one of the worst guys ive ever met too...he might b a good frnd bt to me he's just another species The Asshole.

2. The Ex

The ex and I had our time togther u can say we rekindled the old flame...but ud b WRONG...wateva we strted i can tell its alrdy unhealthy...wen were togther its all good i feel loved nd all tht great jazz but once he leaves i feel like some upscale prostitute. 

As in we dnt tlk to each other unless we wana meet up...and tht is the only reason we may have a stable convo...otherwise, wen we tlk he alwys stops in the middle of the convo ndi knw i am not the only person on each tht feels a way wen some1 just stops tlking in the middle of a txt r sumn (thts all we do, txt). So i had Promised myself NEVER to initiate a convo with him EVER AGN...and after tht last day togther he is not to come bak in my room, on my bed.

 (made April 22, 2012). Tired of being treated like shit so am taking control of my life.

3. New Team

I am 20 yrs old nd i've had three guys change my life dramatically...all through some form of heartache and pain...you may say am too young and thts yer opinion but i knw wat ive been thru....in my 20 yrs i can relate to women in thier 40's because of wat ive been thru...honestly i think its why me and my aunts nd my mom get along so well right nw because i've experienced all the major forms of heartbreak a woman can go thru all thts left is a miscarriage (which i might have gone thru alrdy..but well jus ignore tht one) and my man getting some1 else pregnant.

With tht said...am going Gay

...i've alwys been bi-curious nd my frenz wud not b surprised because they knw...nd i have had adventures with woman nd i must admit tht i loved it...i like to see lesbians nd i often fantasize abt being one....so this is my chance

Honestly, wen i think abt being with women it sets my mind at ease, nd i feel elated....maybe it because its a new adventure or its just me finding where i belong...but am done with men...for nw

4. Health Update

So far my period stopped on April 1st, so it ran frm February 10th to April 1st...thts a long run [LOL]

Anyway its done and am okie....took a blood test nd i have an appointment in a few weeks so just waiting for tht nd ill update u wen it happens.

I've changed my diet...eating more fruits nw and am eating more...usually id starve my body but now am jus eating more timely than i used to nd i seem to feel like am losing weight so YAY me :)

5. Bits and Pieces

Yup, so thts tht...this is just the wrap up point i guess....anyway, I stills miss my mom, i hardly tlking to my dad...nt tht am upset with him its just we hardly tlk and am worried abt my frend....he used to tlk to me so often used to b so happy even if he was faking it....nd id like to think i cud read him but i cnt am totally lost i just knw am worried and i hope he's ok...i knw exams are coming up nd i hope he studying too

"Live Long and Prosper"