Push Over

For most of my life i have been "a very nice and kind person" nobody was mean to me i had alot of frenz nd life was gud....but in the werds of my father:

'this world is not the place for nice ppl'

Usually wen am not a push over nd i become aggressive/assertive it ends up hurting pplz feelings and at the time i might not care but eventually i find maself apologizing to them r making silly excuses for wat i did.

However tht is in the past nw....ive become brutally honest in recent yrs telling the truth so often tht it is almost impossibru for me to lie....even if my life depended on it...the blind cud see thru my lies. i've nw come to learn to stand my ground even to those tht are older than me nd i knw it means running the risk of being disrespectful but i do it any anyways because its how i feel and mayb ppl shud strt taking this into consideration.

Even tho ive become this 'badass' i think i smile too much with ppl i care abt cuz then they also strt to underestimate the heights of my rage. Wen am the slightest of annoyed my thoughts go Texas Chainsaw Massacre -sigh- it even scares me how scary my thoughts can get...to the point where i might even try to put em to work.

So my STBB, was outside my class and our Dean was our lecturer tht day so u knw all tha kids were on there P'z and Q'z...anywhoo my class ended early nd she was tryna buy some time so i went outside to say hi to him and like a fucking pussy he strts running me bak inside...so am like dude chill out the class is over....he keeps telling me to go inside...his voice gets all serious he looks worried nd scared to shit nd he keeps repeating "go inside! go inside!!" so i reply "the class is overrrrrr....she's done" but while this is happening am noticing tht he really was serious and sacred and my thoughts are: dude am grown tho i cn do as i please nw so why r u behaving so jittery

He eventually realizes tht am not going inside so he processed to curse at me and i quote " weh di BUMBO...yow jus go bak inside!"

-chuckles- so he may not have finished his word but it got my attention inuff to make me wanna reach down his throat, drag his balls up thru a tour of his esophagus and having them exit thru his mouth.

anywhooo...i walked away slowly cuz this dude does not knw me...once i left other ppl strted leaving the class too so  he the realized tht he made a horrible mistake.

he comes to me all apologetic and shit and of course i deny him...i told him flat out i didnt accept his apology...but he made it up to me, eventually.

the point is i might b a nice girl but i am not for Brittney Spears initials.

dnt b a push ova stand up fah yerself and yer beliefs...our ancestors fought too hard for a voice for us to jus sit and b silent.