PDA...

So  this is ma second time writing this cuz ma net jus screwing wit me nd i doubt it will be tha same as tha original but anyway here goes.

Me and ma Rugby dude doin alot a PDA (Public Display of Affection). It started today with just a hug and a kiss on tha cheek....but tht kiss made me high as hell...smiling frm ear to ear like i OD on some ecstasy lol ye its THAT serious.

Then in the space of a few hrs we were on tha corridor hugging so tight and kissing tongue and all...i mean wat a rush! our peers cud have seen, our lecturers or DEAN!!! omg...i LOVED it! am super duper excited about this thing with this dude...he gives me such a contact high jah knw.

And to think i used to hate PDA or i used to hate seeing it like many other single females being jealous and shit but nw tht am getting it its tha best thing any couple cud do. Honestly wen am in his arms every1 else disappears so i dnt even realize we in public lol...its prety awesome if u ask me. 

Ma advice to other couples PDA is like a level in yer r'ship if u happy enuff to make tha world knw then it says alot about the type of r'ship you have. dnt get me wrong tho...i dnt mean u shud go ovaboard nd totally make single ppl feel like shit or ignore yer frenz wen yer other half is there....but if u comfy enuff to be lovey dovey in public then i think its great i also think its cute...but, hey, thts jus me.

I Love PDA

>>>Vent>>>>>>Release>>>Breathe~~~~~~~~~~

LoVe?

So now tht all the hate is out i can tlk about all the good am feeling... -whew- this is some good shit.

Am not in love, and i think i love this guy...hmmmm...NAH! its too early to love this Rugby dude (thts wat we're calling him). Anyway lets get down to it there is alot of back story to this new found Rugby dude amo put tht on another page but wat u need to knw nw is tht...i think am "in Like"....lol ye...tht other four letter word.

I mean this dude sees the little things i do and he likes them, he makes me smile frm ear to ear and ever so loudly (so not lady like) and dear Lord his hugs make the world disappear, i float away into ma own lil world where its so safe, so peaceful so FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!! ma planet is built on this super strong foundation tht is his arms and then he makes this snoring sound and totally kills ma fairy tale hahaha but i like it cuz it means he's comfortable on me...right? i think so

And he been hurt a few good times too but he still opens up to me, making himself vulnerable and i see it and i try not to mess it up cuz lord knws i dnt wana loose him nor do i wana hurt him...in anyway...i jus wana make him happy :D lol....

This is how i am...i find a guy i like nd i go straight into 'make this guy happy' mode its kinda pathetic but idc nd Rugby dude deserves it.

>>>Vent>>>>>>Release>>>Breathe~~~~~~~~~~

I txtd my ex becuz his grandfather died and this guy made me feel like shit for even caring about him....it seems my kindness has made me weak...this guy almost made me cry for even caring about him then i rmbred how much of an asshole he really is and it finally jus fell into place. i loved him in spite of his condition, i just overlooked it wen it was there all along i guess i just needed to break up with him before i cud see how much of an ASSHOLE he really was.

He used to ask me why i loved him, nd id find the best things to say abt him but i guess love is blind....but nw my eyes are open nd am not gona make the mistake of feeling srry for him agn

Even knw i fell the tears coming but id neva cry for caring for any1 even if he is the epitome of an asshole.

>>Vent>>>Release>>>>Breathe~~~~~~