Anyway, Hola...Let's get down to business. Since I've been away I can't really catch you up on every single detail that has happened since the last time I blogged so am gona just give you the important parts. That includes My Gay Path and my normal, confused love life path.
My Gay Path
So this path has been short, and when I say short I don't mean the length of the path, as if to say I did it a few days then stopped. No. I mean I haven't reached where I would have liked to be by now (its my fault tho...being a pussy and all).
I've had a couple of girls ready and willing to take me to hell and back but I haven't pushed it, either because am not interested in them or because am just scared and ish. Even so, they're still there so i can take up the offer at anytime. But there is also the problem of chicks I wana approach or wana screw and i may give them hints and they seem willing but I don't want to disappoint them so I a back down...cause lets face it I cant approach chicks and not have a good amount of experience, that'll just be embarrassing (am not about that life).
In essence, am still trodding my Gay Path, but its a slow, extremely slow walk but am still very interested in walking straight to the finish line.
Sighh...on to the next topic of my life...the non-existent love life
I met a new guy, we shall refer to him as Capricorn...which is his zodiac sign. He basically mind fucked me...literally!
Now, I'm an extreme Sapiosexual (google it) and this guy...sigh...he fucking blew ma mind . I don't know if its because i didn't expect him to be so...so witty/charming/pragmatic. The day I met him I had a 20 minute conversation with the guy and he gained my attention and kept it for an entire week...now this hardly happens to me. I meet guys who are intelligent all the time its not that rare, but usually those guys use their intelligence to belittle their peers, to be condescending assholes or just annoy me by just being verbose.
I can not express how this guy has affect my state of mind....if i should even give you tha half it would be clear as day that I desperately need professional help. I have spoken to this guy face to face about two times, I've seen him in total five time...3/5 times we made out. We can never communicate non-verbally because he's so busy with family, school and some other personal stuff. The point am trying to make is, I hardly get to see Capricorn and we can never talk otherwise because he's so busy and with me being so 'obsessed' I decided it wasn't safe to even have any contact info for him.
In the end, I deleted him out of my life about a week and a half ago, he still has my contact info tho but he has never tried to contact me...so i took tha hint basically, and i realized I made the right decision.
Side Note: I may make it seem as if am infatuated with someone who doesn't even notice me but this is not true he has expressed mutual feelings for me (which I now question as i type this...welp). In any case, even in my infatuated phase I was still stable enough to cut my losses...and for that I am uber proud of my self.
Maybe in my next blog Ill tell you the full story on Capricorn...if i feel like it
